.Tuesday, July 21, 2009@5:00 AM.
Hi guys.. is being a very long ever since my last post.. wel.. just update myself though you guys have known what i have been doing.. on 5/27 i started working in mac.. that was my first part-time job.. my second part-time job is as a tutor( teach chinese) anyway.. just last week thurs.. i was sent home by sch due to me not feeling well.. so i took 2 days MC.. fri and mon.. however,today when i get back sch again. not yet half an hour i straight away get sent home again.. my dad was so angry that he gonna waste money to let me see docotr and get MC.. i really wan to tell those teacher although i was weak, but i not so weak that i have to get rest.. every night when ever i was in the room from far distance from the living room i could hear my dad coughing like crazy, ever since that incident happen,he nvr recover before.. it getting worst, his medication bill is getting higher.. i really wan to help him carry off his burden but yet with just two job with low pay i dunno how to manage so that he won't have to suffer.. but right now even my self i can't even handle anymore.. i feel so stress.. two more years,my dad will have to retire.. by then i dunno who will be able to take care this family.. my heart really break off when i see him continue to suffer in that manner.. how i wish god could just help him get relief off.. but yet no improvements were made.. today, i met my dad friends, they ask me one question, if my dad wants to find someone to accompany him, will i accept.. my first reaction was NO! i dunno why i would say that but rather i shall say i dun like outsider to interupt our family.. expect me to accept an outsider to be my step-mother i would rather die.. right now there are one three thing i was worried abt.. First: Wondering how to cope with choir when sch start, Second : how to help my dear friend to gain back her confidence and release her from darkness,Third:For the one i love,how can i able to help them whenever they need someone?.. well.. i shall stop here.. i'm tired.. is getting late.. cya everyone
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