It has been a long time ever since i blog.. many things happens i dunno why suddenly my old memory that i has been forcing my self to forget come back to me.. it makes me really unhappy.. so during this dec holi all i do was tuition... nth else... it seems so boring.. ever since my tuition starts on 30th of nov, i was so afraid that i might offence the teachers again.. i used to offence one sci teacher whom now teaching me pure chem... from the first lesson she alr told me that pure chem is not simple.. i have to noe the basic first before i went on with the class.. so i try my best to put all my concentration on that class.. how i wish sch has no reopen.. my next yr 312 class have 32 boys and 8 girls.. i was like.. wth.. and i heard that our teacher gonna be a discipline master i was so afraid and totally no mood when i noe the class.. i keep wondering next yr banned english class who will be in my class.. now all my days i spent my self locking in my room doing nth.. my mind totally run wild... i really wanna hang out with some friends but.. no one seems like i can find.. everyday i do is studying for test for my tuition.. everyweek got one test every chapter finish, there will b test then every lesson there will be 3 sets of homework to do... i feel so boring.. so today huiting finally ask me to go out and play badminton.. but i can't go at all.. cos i was so afraid of the report from doctor.. this few days i feel so restless.. i totally have no energy to do a single things.. i been thinking that will my report b negetive or positive.. but even the result out, no one will care... every mid i couldn't sleep at all until morning 7+ then sleep.. i might afraid i can't hold it for long.. haiz.. all the worries i have, i dun feel like facing them at all..

Labels: darkness in my heart

Name: TAN MEI SHAN
Studying in: YIO CHU KANG SECONDARY
Born in:06/05/1994
Age: 15
Attending: CITY HARVEST CHURCH
She Loves: w341, God and her friends




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