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.Tuesday, November 11, 2008@8:53 AM.

Haiz.. today morning 7.30 i wake up from my bed, to my shock, my leg is full of nong.. and i start saying wth no wonder the whole night was so hard to sleep.. i almost go scratch my wound but everytime i wanna do that, i will get remind of the words that ms wong and mr chiang had said to me.. next i feel something burning in me and i go take my temperature so i found out i having fever..but i did not go see doctor.. so i take panodol and i went to bed again.. then i receive msg from my friend reply and the question that one of my classmate have been asking me since the day i'm back.. So i wake up in the afternoon and i online msn to chat with Eunice to ask her abt the secedule for choir.. i noe that sooner or later she and my best friend will leave me that why i dun dare to really take in them as my best friend. at night 7+, my aunt call my house to ask me go down to have dinner so i went down at 8 and i got mix rice for dinner..after dinner, my 6th uncle ask me to help him fold the invitation card for my cousin cos next yr 3rd of jan he will b married.. but i dun feel a single happy feeling at all.. after that i come back home at 10+ i on my com and i saw many msg waiting for me to reply but i have no time so just reply them and went down to help.. on my way,i call Eunice and explain to her the misunderstanding.. but i noe the hateress in her to me is still there even though she said her not.. since the day my very best friend i noe for long have change since sec 1 i slowly lose her.. everytime i wanna talk to her but she seems dun wan to talk to me at all.. so slowly i begun to feel that i might b her enermy one day.. so from the trip back i warn my self to keep a distance away from everyone.. include the "friend" that i dun hate me at all.. actually to what i found out was i dun even deserve a single friend in my whole life.. cos to what i been thru since i was primary one, i counted those to been with me as "friend", is zero.. everytime i make ppl angry is because i wanna make them hate me.. the more they hate me the more happy i m.. becos the hate in them can let me c their true feeling.. so from now on, i only wan to treat 7 person good and which is Ms Wong, Mr Chiang,Mrs Wee,Mr damon, stephanie, Eunice and huiting.. those 4 teacher which i name is becos they been thru with me to trip and they fully understand everything that i been thru and which i told them.. as for the first two person i mention they help me alot during sch time and the trip too.. especially stephanie.. becos of my she get hurt too.. when she injured my heart also feel hurt and bleeding.. i been thru with her for so long i truely afraid to lose her.. but i have no choice so for what i can do is make you all hate me.. there for you two hate me then the more i can make you two get less danger away from me.. as for huiting, i almost lose her before.. so i treat her as a precious to me.. wat ever she wan i will try my best to let her have it.. those who bully her i will also try my best to get revenge for her.. ( Eunice and Stephanie.. i'm sry i have to make u guys hate me.. i dun wan you guys to get in more trouble for wat is going to happen next after the trip) so no matter what i do plz hate me more then been gd to me.. i truely treat u guys as the super best friend that i ever had but i have to make u guys leave me.. i dun wan to drag u all down becos the trouble that going to happen.. and sometime u guys will c if i see Ms wong, i will seems like wanna talk to her alot.. becos i written something special in the letter that i pass to her during the trip.. i truely treat her like family cos i feel something close in her cos i felt that she is one of the adult who is so special to me..SO NO MATTER WHAT HATE ME AS MUCH AS U CAN..

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